i did yoga this morning, gave gratitude and thanks. i set an intention for being soft and yielding.
i practiced a self love exercise as suggested by my soul helper of sorts.
yesterday i hung out with a new friend. we saw a cute movie and ate good food. it was fun.
i am employed at a job i truly like and am engaged in. i do not dread it like i’ve dreaded past jobs.
i have a supportive, loving family.
adventures with friends new and old keep happening.
the universe has opened up myriad opportunities for me recently in the ways of relationships, careers, and happiness.
i seem to wake up, nearly every day, anxious. like i am holding my breath until sleep, when i go soft unintentionally. in the middle of my being i carry a tightness that won’t let up, no matter how many times i ask it to remember all the good things. this is where my stubbornness lives, and it is what weighs down my heart, my chest. good, beautiful, solid things are unfolding, right in front of me, but i feel unable to grasp them, to believe in their firmness. a part of me, the doubtful, critical, judgemental part, will not let me be.
i am not trusting the goodness or my self.
the cycles i’ve fallen into through out my life are hard ones to break. old emotional patterns, old ways of reacting, the past meeting the present and scaring it shitless.
i have a hard time letting go. most of us do, no?
i understand the power to change rests within me. i know stillness and quiet environments stimulate my inner voice. i recognize i am wasting time, by over thinking and analyzing and organizing.
so i guess what i am asking here is this:
from one anxious person to another,
how do you reground yourself in the true reality that you are a whole person, heading toward gorgeous beginnings and have nothing to be scared of?
i am tired of worrying.
(p.s: quite random but i want to offer a heart felt ‘thank you’ to you, my follower, my followers. thank you for reading my words, for sharing your own creativity, and challenging me to do the same. i appreciate your presence and would love to hear from you, if you care to share. namaste, precious ones!)